Friday, June 19, 2009

Wanted: Antidote for Boredom

Let me just start off by saying that I love being a mom.

With that said, I can't stand down time in huge quantities. A summer is a huge quantity. It is an even larger quantity when I think of it in terms of "staying home" this fall. I am having a hard time with this and I need advice. How do you not go crazy staying home? What is the remedy? My house is sparkling clean, so what am I supposed to do now? I do have a to-do list of projects to work on, but they are boring to me, because I feel like I made them up to fill my time. I'm bored if I do; I'm bored if I don't.

Everyone was asking me at the end of the school year if I was so excited to be done, and the truth is that I wasn't and I'm still not "excited". I'm at peace with my decision, but not excited. I'm addicted to teaching (which is why I'll be running a preschool out of my home this fall). I think somehow, I am also addicted to an overloaded, high stress, full of deadlines schedule, and I'm going to be really sad in about a month when all my teacher friends go back to set up their classrooms and I don't go with them.

I feel like it's the right thing for me to stay home right now--Tyson is ready for it & Mitch is ready for it. As for me...I'm still trying to "get ready" for it. : )